Thursday, October 10, 2013

Looking Back

I highly encourage you to do this. It's a very good way to self-reflect based on the past. I made this list on here at the beginning of January and find it very fascinating looking back and comparing! Try listing at least 25! Also, I cannot believe how many of these clearly indicate that I could possibly have had Narcolepsy. (The parentheses are my recent updates.)

I am 24 years old. (25 now.)
I am a female. (Still am!)
I sleep too much. (Welp, I can explain that now! Damn hypothalamus! Indicator #1 for N.)
I am a hopeless romantic. (That wont change.)
I need caffeine. (Life of a narcoleptic. Makes sense. Indicator #2.)
I love cotton scents. (Sandalwood now too!!)
I want to learn about Buddhism. (Still do! Buddha is forever with me now!)
I am not chubby.
I am not skinny.
I have green eyes.
I have dirty blonde hair.
I am self conscious about my body. (I am progressing on this.)
I am pretty.
I find the mind fascinating. (Yeup.)
I rely on medication. (Still trying to find the right stuff! #3.)
I love the color aqua and black.
I have bad allergies. (Doing fairly well with these.)
I wish I had enough intelligence to work in the science field. (Still do.)
I am always smiling even when I am upset. (I run on smiles.)
I do not have a best friend. (Lies. You know who you are.)
I have become more girly. (To an extent.)
I am pale. (Sunkissed now!)
I want more energy. (UGHHH still!!! Makess sense now. #4.)
I have obsessive thoughts. (Bah.)
I am creative. (Heehee.)
I am a deep thinker. (Always putting myself in someone elses shoes!)
I over analyze situations. (It wears me out. Getting much better!)
I love water. (I went to the Quarry this summer over 10 times.)
I am silly.
I like the blues. (Ooo I dooo ooo.)

I believe in aliens.
I like yoga. (I like hooping better now!! It keeps me energetic, yet is calming/meditative!)
I like to drink. (Got me, except I have significantly decreased this.)
I like to laugh.
I fake laugh. (50% of the time is because I am not paying attention.)
I am rarely happy and if I tell you you've helped.. appreciate it. (I will tell you. #5.)
I want to be happy. (I have made strides at accomplishing this.)
I have mood swings. (Narcolepsy. Mhmm. #6.)
I have severe anxiety. (I've learned this is more due to exhaustion and not being able to handle thoughts/emotions well enough because of that. #7.)
I am tinted yellow.
I do not maintain relationships. (Nailed it. #8.)
I am lonely. (Fixed that. LOLAS!)
I like indie.
I am funny.
I want to play the guitar. (One day. Maybe.)
I love my personality.
I want children.
I am innovative. (I'd say my best skill/feature.)
I love taking photos. (Mmhm!)
I am caring.
I love nature. (Again, went to NLQP over 10 times this summer.)
I like baking cupcakes.
I want my own garden. (Did it!)
I deal with severe depression. (Significant strides due to the N diagnoses. #9.)
I want to help anyone become a better person.
I challenge myself.
I am healing.
I have a low working memory. 
I have a past. (Who doesn't?)
I like 90's music.
I love pets. (And the new job follows this passion!)
I want more willpower. (Damnnn Narcolepsy #10.)
I like to experiment.
I am an instigator. (Who? Me?)
I love to make people happy. (Yes and laugh!)
I never finish things. (Reasons why there are stimulants. #11.)
I like constructive criticism. (Makes me better.)
I want to move. (I would if I could.)
I like being a bum.
I like to snack. (Shit! I'm out of Reeses!)
I am easily distracted. (#12.)
I have a learning disorder. (N don't help this factor.)
I am above average in other learning areas. 
I want to be an art teacher. (That is a dream of mine. Back burner.)
I am in debt. (That's what college does.)
I am paranoid.
I want to start fresh. (Do I?)
I like cold showers. (Wakes me up more.)
I get jealous.
I am clumsy. (Comes with the constant grogginess/cataplexyness. #13.)
I love decorating. (That ain't changed!)
I love family.
I love bright neon colors.
I like to cook. (Yes!)
I am mental. (My brain lacks hypocretin associated with N. #14.)
I always have my toenails painted. (That they are.)
I only use black, gray or purple polish. (Yepp! Purple right now!)
I can sing on tune.
I have a terrible singing voice.
I am a procrastinator. (Lack of energy. #15.)
I am trustworthy.
I am not afraid to be outgoing. (I will gladly publicly make a fool out of myself or you!)
I want to learn more about outer space. (Still do.)
I am calm.
I am crazy. (We're never gonna survive so lets get a little crazy...)
I want to get married.
I am real.
I believe in karma. (Still.)
I like tattoos. (Many more added.)
I become easily unmotivated. (Zzzz. #16.)
I have fast processing speed. (Automatic.)
I have patience. (Thank you previous job!)
I am compassionate.
I like feeling wanted.
I am a visual learner. (Drawings as well as re-writing things in my own words!)
I am not book smart.
I hate the color brown.
I hate pastel colors. (Gives me the jitters. Weird, I know.)
I constantly misplace things. (Guilty. #17.)
I am finding myself.