Monday, June 9, 2014

Friend?

What is a friend? I wish I knew.

I am so tired of feeling like I have to go to the extreme to get anyone to care. Where are the friends who care every day-- not just when it's convenient?

If they read my thoughts I wonder if they'd be here? I'd probably be let down and pushed to the side even then.

No one knows. Not one person what I am really going through. It has been 3 4 5 months. Not one person has even asked or stepped up.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Lost

For one day I would love to feel in place. Like I belong. As I look back I cannot remember the last time I felt whole. There's always something missing. I keep waiting around for it to come. It hasn't yet. How do I fill in this missing void? My warmth has turned into cold. My love has turned into bitterness. My positivity has turned into negativity. I become more drained every passing day.

I would love to go out and experience life. However, I am held back because of uncontrollable tiredness. The sad thing is... I cannot imagine living a few more years feeling this way. Let alone years. Day by day is hard enough. Not sure when this ends, but more so I wish it just would.