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First Step to Clarity

Today marks the day of my sobriety from alcohol and my medications (I am not an alcoholic by the way. I just tend to try and solve my problems that way). I am a little nervous but then again excited. I have made this decision because I am taking some time off work, so why not do it now while everyone knows I am struggling with trying to figure out what the heck is wrong with me, rather then having to go through a crazy process all over again. 

The reason I am going off my medication is actually for a medical sleep study. I will be off of them for at least 6 weeks. It takes one week to lower the dosage a step down. Another week to lower it one more time. Then the third week I will be anti-depressant free. For the study I must then have two weeks week off of the medications. I will then have the study done. After, I will then decide, based on how I feel, if I want to go back on them. 

As most of you already know alcohol is a depressant. When I drink any type of this substance it diminishes the effects of the medications. If I over drink it changes my perspectives, mood, etc. When I am in an off mood I become a totally different person. I become very bitter, mean and angry which is extremely, extremely uncommon for me. I am never that person sober. So, since it is very unhealthy to begin with, let alone while attempting to go off of the medication, I have decided sobriety is the best option for me.