Blunder

blun·der

    [bluhn-der]  Show IPA

noun

1.

a gross, stupid, or careless mistake

I am completely outraged by how someone can change in the matter of a month. I set expectations for people in my life and they are very realistic. I have learned when they do not meet up to these expectations, causing stress and disappointment, then that means they are not worth the trouble. I should move on and stop wasting my time.

But, it is in fact sad when this happens. I witnessed someone, who I believe has the capability to be an absolutely remarkable person, make a very stupid mistake, or "blunder", causing much embarrassment and shame on their part. I am utterly appalled. Unfortunately, they have become so conceded they failed to feel any remorse for this mistake. It has also greatly affected someone else's life and yet no apology was given. It is very sad to see someone fail at becoming a remarkable person.

Luckily, for me I was able to find some positivity out of this blunder. I was told a few months ago when talking to a therapist about this person that I was the one becoming enlightened. At the time my self esteem was at an all time low but now I realize she was right. I was on my way to becoming enlightened... and I was the remarkable one for working towards becoming a better person.

Desire

"So here's my advice. Be sure that the qualities you seek are ones that will stand the test of time. Looks fade, money evaporates, and you don't really want to party as much as you think you do. Look for someone who shares your values and communicates well and who will have your back.

Lastly, I don't think you can expect to find one person to meet all your needs. You must learn to take care of yourself in some ways. Burdening your partner with having to fulfill your every desire will burn him or her out.

If you want a relationship, finding it will be much easier if you keep your expectations in line and focus on finding someone who shares your desire for peace and harmony. When someone touches your heart and also has goodness inside them—now that could be relationship material." 

-Psychology Today

Mind full or Mindful?

"Mindfulness isn't a goal, because goals are about the future, but you do have to set the intention of paying attention to what's happening at the present moment. As you read the words printed on this page, as your eyes distinguish the black squiggles on white paper, as you feel gravity anchoring you to the planet, wake up. Become aware of being alive. And breathe. As you draw your next breath, focus on the rise of your abdomen on the in-breath, the stream of heat through your nostrils on the out-breath. If you're aware of that feeling right now, as you're reading this, you're living in the moment. Nothing happens next. It's not a destination. This is it. You're already there." 

-Psychology Today


I strongly believe I must acquire mindfulness before I am truly happy.

Introductory Thoughts and Why.

The best way for me to describe my thought process, as of lately, is that my mind gets tangled in a knot. Not a simple shoe string knot, that occasionally unties itself, but an old necklace that has been rediscovered buried deep inside a jewelry box. It is the type of necklace where each of the chains are tangled within each other. It takes a lot of patience and willingness to come up with the end result but once it's untangled there is a sense of freedom. And if I am lucky enough to untangle the necklace and reach the sense of freedom, I am able to wear it. 


I feel it would be a good idea if I wrote these thoughts down. Maybe spelling them out will help me find new ways to untangle my thoughts that way I can wear them. 


So here goes nothi.... I mean something.